the downward spiral that my thoughts take when I think about my relationships.
Why do I do this to myself. Something is going just fine and then my asshole brain gets ahold of it and starts to tear it to pieces.
I don’t want to demean every relationship I’ve made this past year and make it into something angry or distrustful. But that’s exactly what happens when I get a few minutes alone to myself and see some dumb shit on FB. Or think over conversations I had.
I irritate myself immensely when I think of all this junk. Why you no like me brain? Why you make me think too much?!
Because that is EXACTLY what I am doing. Thinking WAY too much.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK.