Apparently I shouldn't want to kiss you for no...
Haven’t been on this in forever but as I am actually using tumblr for good instead of evil while I write my paper I might as well write something. So my boyfriend of the past four months is sleeping in my bed and suddenly after I used the bathroom I wanted to give him a quick kiss before I went back to writing my paper. Granted it is almost 2 in the morning so he gets some leeway, but I...
Why helllooooooo there.
WOW I haven’t been on this thing in a coons age!! Wait….that’s racist. I take it back. I haven’t been on this thing in a very long time no specified by someone’s race or ethnicity. Anywho, This short entry shall be about my love for Olan Rogers and my lusting after a boy I refer to as Bunny man. Olan Rogers, you magnificent bastard I adore everything I am...
I AM THE HULK!!
Tony Stark/ Iron Man [ ] You like booze [ ] You are the life of the party [ ] You love gadgets [ ] You can be rather cocky [ ] You’re favorite color is red or gold [ ] You’re good with computers [x] You use sarcasm a lot [ ] You love getting attention [ ] You’re good at mechanics [x] You have issues with your parents 2/10 Dr. Bruce Banner/ The Hulk [ ] You’re good at science [x] You can get very...
Is it really "together"
if you never talk? I mean a random message now and then about trying to meet up is about the extent of our conversations. And those don’t happen that often. I wonder if a couple can be termed still “together” if they don’t actually ever spend any time together. Why are we still dating? It confuses me a bit. Would I be sad if we stopped our together-ness? Would HE be sad? I...
I'm not so sure
about any of it anymore.
And thus begins...
the downward spiral that my thoughts take when I think about my relationships. Why do I do this to myself. Something is going just fine and then my asshole brain gets ahold of it and starts to tear it to pieces. I don’t want to demean every relationship I’ve made this past year and make it into something angry or distrustful. But that’s exactly what happens when I get a few...
4/20 is stupid but on another note
I get to go bowling with my best friend and my boyfriend!! YAY! There will of course be another male individual there but he’s with my Bestest and I don’t really know him that well. I think she’s jumping into something too fast and neither of them seem to care! Oh well. I have to learn I cannot fix everyone’s life.
I am a cuddler. I am a morning person. I am an only child. I am currently in my pajamas. I am currently pregnant. I am left handed. I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first. I bite my nails. I can be paranoid at times. I enjoy country music. I enjoy smoothies. I enjoy talking on the phone. I have a car. I have/had a hard time paying attention at school. I have a hidden talent. I have...
I need a job
not for the money, though I need that too, but for the simple, wonderful reason of being able to legitimately ignore some of my friends. I understand that’s a horrible reason but I’m so sick of having to babysit your fucking feelings all the time. Do these people not know me? Do they not remember that I enjoy my silence?! F U stupidly forgetful friends. Leave me alone for a little...
Quite fond of this dude
I've come to the conclusion
I should not be left with small children. I don’t watch them close enough, I find their crying annoying, and I’m kind of mean sometimes. I feel bad after, a little at least, I’m not a horrible person. But I definitely don’t feel bad enough to change the way I am with them. Small people, i.e. Children of their various shapes and sizes, should not be given unto my care. ...
For some unknown reason
I REALLY wanna work out tomorrow. Like possibly run and then row until I can’t row no mo lol But seriously. I think it was because as I was scarfing down a bowl of ice cream it hit me, I complain to myself much too often of not looking how I want and I do absolutely nothing about it. I was definitely working toward a goal during the fall but as it always does, winter came along and...
I must have woken up in another dimension this morning or something because an unbelievable thing just happened…. I enjoyed a song by Justin Bieber. WHAT. HAVE. I. DONE?!! btw it’s called Boyfriend and I would seriously get down to this song in the club. It’s kinda sexy….and I feel dirty just saying that about the Biebs.
Is it bad
that I’m ok with not being involved in the festivities for birthday’s tonight? I think….it might just be a sign that I am slowly starting to outgrow the small group I just recently thrust myself into. Probably not a good sign.
He's definitely growing on me
and not in a bad fungus like way. More like in a I-kind-of-enjoying-seeing-you-now way. So like a new freckle that’s kind attractive way lol But seriously, lately he seems different. More interested I guess? Or more attentive rather. He’s way more affectionate too which surprises me every time it happens. I like it though. He seems more human.
grr grr grr
annoyed annoyed annoyed. ಠ_ಠ
Racist comments just aren't funny to me.
They just aren’t. And when they are funny to the people around me I get extremely annoyed. Seriously. Weren’t you raised better than that? I am really starting to dislike the DoucheBag friend as my Adopted Friend calls him. Yup not having as much fun anymore.
I just need to hang out with some stupid people
I am so sick and tired of hearing all these fucking opinions.
I hate listening to pretentious people talk
yes, movies don’t always follow books, I get mad about it too! But come on, stop trying to sound all “deep” about why the characters and plot of the movie are missing things. I am the first to admit I rip apart movies that follow books but dude, shut the fuck up. Seriously.
So geeky time all weekend
with a little sex thrown in here and there. Sounds like a pretty good time! I’m somewhat looking forward to it. Only somewhat though, which probably isn’t good in relation to the sex aspect lol
I want new ink!!
Like super-de-duper bad!!! I want it so bad!!!! AHHH!!! When I finally DO get some money I can play around with I am getting one. or two. or three!!! AHAHAHAHA I CANNOT wait!!
I'm not happy
that’s it. Pretty cut and dry. I’m just not happy with anything that’s going on in my life right now. GL, school, unemployment, no car, still live at home with dad, no money, I am what I like to refer to as a grade-A-LOSER right now. bitch bitch bitch blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda Fuck this shit.
I almost contemplating prostetution
no, not really of course. But I really need some fuckin money and need it quick like. The lady at FIN AID lied to me big time when I talked to her months ago. I won’t be getting my refund until the end of fucking march! What the hell am I supposed to do until then? PLUS my dad sold the car (granted I’m not mad he sold it because it was a hunk of junk, but I now have no means of...
This is stupid
why am I agonizing over things that need not be agonized over?! One of my biggest flaws is that I cannot just let things go. I’m a dweller of the lowest realm of worries. GAH! I just want to enjoy something and not put so much stress on it in my own head! F U Brain!!! Take a night off and just BE EASY!
I’m nervous I’ll find out I have a tumor, but I’m slightly more nervous they’ll tell me something else I couldn’t even think of. Please whoever is listening, I don’t ask for a miracle or any crap like that, I just want answers that don’t ruin my life. Thanks, Me
I want a soul mate
I just finished watching Crazy, Stupid, Love and all I could think was, I want one of those. I want someone that just makes me full . I want to feel full of feelings that I have for them. I want to be bursting at the seams. I want my cup to almost run over. I just want that kind of love that makes you feel like it’s worth the time and effort you put into it. I want a love that...
I understand that it's my fault
that I don’t have money but seriously, how many times do I have to fuckin repeat that I don’t have funds to do shit? And yet you keep asking me to go places where I feel like crap for sitting there and not eating.
Well this is exciting
first I get told I’m a fuck buddy. Not in a malicious way but nonetheless it’s still a bit disconcerting to be told by my “boyfriend” thing that I’m a fuck buddy. And now I get to listen to friends have sex!! Yay.
life has been shit. So now to add to that pile I realized my fucking old job isn’t going to give me my last pay check. Hmm. Illegal? Quite possibly. I shall be checking this out whenever my ride gets here. I need that money to pay bills and if they don’t give it to me then I’ll sue. Or just protest outside of their place of business. Something to be a pain in the ass until I get...
my boobs HURT
so effing bad it should be ok for me to just walk around holding them. I am almost 95% sure it’s because of all these pills I have to take and all the hormones they are pumping through me but DAMN my boobies are sore!!! I could use a heating pad.
OH MY GOD
I HAVE WEATHER MAGIC!!!! YESSSSSSSS!!!!! That or the Gods of Weather do in fact take snotty kleenex as tribute. Interesting.
the problem with staying up late
is that your mind starts to wander and you begin to over think things. Like what if I want more than you are willing to give me? What if I want less than you do? What if this is wasted time and energy spent on something that will go no where in the end? What if the “like” I have for you is nothing more than a “fondness” now? What if I should just stop worrying and go...
I would give my left nut
for a thunderstorm right now. That is if I actually had one. Gods of weather, if you do indeed require some kind of tribute to produce said storm, how about a snotty kleenex??? *Gods of Weather give disbelieving eyebrow raise* No? Ok how about a whole BAG of snotty kleenex?? eh? eh? *Gods of Weather slam cow into side of house* Ohhhh-kay, not into the snot. FINE. How about my really old...
Nos amours in my heart.: NHL T-shirt Giveaway! →
lizzybates: Alright, so basically: I’m giving away an NHL player t-shirt. Any team, any player*, whatever you want… I planned on giving away one of my own, but then I realized it would be a lot easier to allow someone to pick whatever shirt they wanted in their size! *If you win, the shirt you choose must be available on either the shop.nhl.com website, or in my local area (Buffalo, NY). But...
My nose hates me
and apparently so does the rest of my respiratory system since I currently am probably single handedly keeping Kleenex in business. Or at least the garbage companies since they will be the ones collecting my mass amounts of used snot rags. Had a great weekend for the most part though and an awesome start to the week by staying at Adopted Friends house where we watched the entirety of Generation...
I think that if I could I’d take a cross country trip right now. Just be a drifter passing through towns and maybe doing an odd job or two here or there. I think if I could have no face or name I’d do a lot of things I might find shameful any other time. I would just like to disappear for a little while.
It's just one hit after another huh?
Silly of me to have thought it would just be one scary thing. Now here comes another leviathan down the pipeline. Never has the phrase fuck my life fit me more.
GL invited me on this trip this weekend
normally I’d be all “FUCK YES!!” but it’s with his family. Here’s the scenario, I’m jamming to some tuneage and GL is about to hit the road jack with his Baby Brother. He walks over and starts death gripping my head (not in a weird killing way but in a “I’m slightly awkward with physical affection so I will be gripping your skull” way.) and...