A blog where I say random shit

Haven’t been on this in forever but as I am actually using tumblr for good instead of evil while I write my paper I might as well write something. So my boyfriend of the past four months is sleeping in my bed and suddenly after I used the bathroom I wanted to give him a quick kiss before I went back to writing my paper. Granted it is almost 2 in the morning so he gets some leeway, but I walked into my room and crept onto my bed where I tried to gently turn his face for me to smooch…..that was met with an angry, “what the fuck” and a little grab. Not sure how I feel about it. Then he asked me, “why are u in my face?” and still giving him the benefit of the doubt I said playfully, “I wanted to give you a kiss!” 

I didn’t get a kiss until I was kind of pissily leaving the room. He just kept asking me why I wanted to give him a kiss, and my reply was, “I just wanted to.” 

So I get up to leave, he reaches for me and pulls me back for an awkward hug where he apologizes for waking up badly and then I pucker up for a VERY quick kiss. I then leave the room and go back to my paper, where after a few minutes he comes out to use the bathroom and what does he ask me….

“Did I hit you?”

WTF MATE, why is that something you have to worry about?? I mean I understand people wake up badly but honestly, that raises a little warning flag for me. He definitely does not seem like the type of person I should worry about that with, lets just say he’s pretty much my bitch most of the time, but I’ve heard worse relationship horror stories where guys switch. I think I’m just being over critical but we shall see. I might end up having to go all Elmer Fudd on my Rabbit. 

WOW I haven’t been on this thing in a coons age!!

Wait….that’s racist. I take it back.

I haven’t been on this thing in a very long time no specified by someone’s race or ethnicity.  

Anywho, 

This short entry shall be about my love for Olan Rogers and my lusting after a boy I refer to as Bunny man.

Olan Rogers, you magnificent bastard I adore everything I am aware of that relates to you. Which pretty much boils down to your fascinatingly deep dimples, your loveably dorkish laugh, and your tales of life that bring such joy and jubilation to my life. Bravo. Please someday allow me to bear your children and bask in the glory that is those offspring.

On another note. There is a male in my Law class that makes the girly parts tingle to attention and makes MY dimples appear. He reminds me of a Bunny Rabbit. Ya know, with biggish ears and those freakin adorable big front teeth!!! He’s a wee little boy though. I mean he’s prolly only 20 and at my VAST age or 23 that’s an age gap I don’t reckon I should risk……or then again maybe not. He is super cute. 

Alas that’s all I feel like writing today but I did enjoy this brief visit. Thank you for still remaining here my often neglected tumblr.
LURV YOU!  

Tony Stark/ Iron Man

[ ] You like booze
[ ] You are the life of the party
[ ] You love gadgets
[ ] You can be rather cocky
[ ] You’re favorite color is red or gold
[ ] You’re good with computers
[x] You use sarcasm a lot
[ ] You love getting attention
[ ] You’re good at mechanics
[x] You have issues with your parents
2/10

Dr. Bruce Banner/ The Hulk
[ ] You’re good at science
[x] You can get very aggressive when ticked off
[x] You like to be secluded most of the time
[x] You like wearing baggy clothes
[ ] You like to meditate
[ ] You like doing science experiments
[x] You try to avoid getting into fights
[x] You like wearing purple things
[x] You’re clever
[x] Your favorite color is green
7/10

Thor
[ ] You’re good with a hammer
[x] You like coffee
[ ] You can eat a truckload of food and still be hungry
[ ] You can be arrogant
[ ] You have long hair
[ ] You have an interest in astrology
[ ] You can get sulky when things don’t go your way
[ ] You’re willing to take a fall for someone else
[ ] You like to dress up as fantasy characters
[ ] You don’t get on well with your sibling(s)
1/10

Steve Rogers/ Captain America
[x] You like helping those in need in any way you can
[x] You hate bullies
[ ] You’re a great leader
[ ] You’re a bit of a do-gooder
[ ] One of your favorite color is red, white or blue
[ ] You like wearing things with stars on them
[x] You strongly admire the army
[x] You have a good throwing arm
[x] You like war films
[ ] You’re good at running
5/10

Colonel Nick Fury
[ ] You like wearing long coats
[ ] You’re good at organizing things
[x] You’re good at being in the loop
[x] You like guns
[x] You’re good at giving information to people
[x] You like giving solutions to peoples problems
[ ] You like eyepatches
[ ] You work best as part of a team
[x] You like beards
[x] You like wearing black things
6/10

Natasha Romanoff / Black Widow
[ ] You like wearing tight clothes
[ ] You can do martial arts
[ ] You’re intrested in the world of spies
[ ] You have red hair
[x] You’re quite agile
[x] People generally don’t know much about the real you
[x] You like to make yourself look good
[ ] You can speak another language
[x] You’re good at taking orders
[ ] You were born in a different country to the one you are living in now
4/10

Clint Barton/ Hawkeye
[ ] You’re very good at archery.
[ ] You currently like/love someone on your team
[x] You like to wear purple and black
[ ] You’re very good at aiming
[ ] You’ve worked at the carnival
[ ] You like working in a team
[x] You’re up for almost anything thrown at you
[ ] You’d be a top assassin if you ever took the job
[ ] You’re quiet
[x] You tend to get along with people well
3/10

Loki
[ ] You want to be a great leader
[x] You want to prove something
[x?] You’re the younger sibling
[x] You’ve been/are overshadowed by a sibling
[ ] You don’t get along so great with your sibling
[x] You’re good at lying
[ ] You’re adopted
[x] You’re very clever
[ ] You are able to manipulate people well
[x] Your favorite color is green or gold
6-ish/10

if you never talk? I mean a random message now and then about trying to meet up is about the extent of our conversations. And those don’t happen that often. I wonder if a couple can be termed still “together” if they don’t actually ever spend any time together. 
Why are we still dating? It confuses me a bit.
Would I be sad if we stopped our together-ness?
Would HE be sad? I can’t imagine that situation ever happening. Him sad over the loss of a relationship. Truthfully I wonder why he got swept along in my current anyway. I wonder. 

Can you still be “a couple” if you’re always a “single” ?  

about any of it anymore. 

the downward spiral that my thoughts take when I think about my relationships. 

Why do I do this to myself. Something is going just fine and then my asshole brain gets ahold of it and starts to tear it to pieces. 

I don’t want to demean every relationship I’ve made this past year and make it into something angry or distrustful. But that’s exactly what happens when I get a few minutes alone to myself and see some dumb shit on FB. Or think over conversations I had. 

I irritate myself immensely when I think of all this junk. Why you no like me brain? Why you make me think too much?! 

Because that is EXACTLY what I am doing. Thinking WAY too much. 

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK. 

Dammit. 

I get to go bowling with my best friend and my boyfriend!! YAY! There will of course be another male individual there but he’s with my Bestest and I don’t really know him that well. I think she’s jumping into something too fast and neither of them seem to care! 

Oh well. I have to learn I cannot fix everyone’s life. 

I am a cuddler. I am a morning person. I am an only child. I am currently in my pajamas. I am currently pregnant. I am left handed. I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first. I bite my nails. I can be paranoid at times. I enjoy country music. I enjoy smoothies. I enjoy talking on the phone. I have a car. I have/had a hard time paying attention at school. I have a hidden talent. I have a pet. I used to have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl. I have all my grandparents. I have been to another country. I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor. I have or had broken a bone. I have caller I.D. on my phone. I have bathed someone. I have changed a diaper. I have changed a lot over the past year. I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. I have had major/minor surgery. I have killed another person. I have had my hair cut within the last week. I have mood swings. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.  I have rejected someone before. I like the taste of blood.  I love/like Michael Jackson. I love sleeping. I love to shop. I own 100 CDs or more. I own and use a library card. I read books for pleasure in my spare time. I sleep a lot during the day. I strongly dislike math. I was born in a country other than the UK or US. I watch soap operas on a regular basis. I work at a job that I enjoy. I would classify myself as ghetto. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. I am currently wearing socks. I am tired. I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt. I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.

I have/had:
Graduated high school. Smoked a cigarette. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a concert. Helped someone. Spun turn tables. Watched four movies in one night. Been dumped. Taken a college level course. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado. Watched someone die. Been to a funeral. Burned yourself. Ran a marathon. Your parents got divorced. Cried yourself to sleep. Spent over $200 in one day. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Had a best friend. Lost someone you loved. Skipped school. Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Been in a mental hospital. Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. Fired a gun. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Taken a lie detector test. Swam with dolphins. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year. Gone to Europe. Loved someone you couldn’t have. Used a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Had more than 5 online conversations going at once. Had a hamster. Dyed your hair. Had something pierced. Got straight A’s. Your parents sent you to a shrink. Been handcuffed.

I am a:
Male
Female 

People sometimes label me as ___, .
Slut
Girly 
Ugly
Nerd
Other

My longest relationship was ___. (including on and off relationships)
1 month or less
2 months
3 months
4 months
5 months
6 months
7 months 
8 months
9 months
10 months
11 months
A year+
Two years or more
I’ve never been in a real relationship.

Some of my biggest fears are ___.
Spiders/other insects
Dying 
Doctor/dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water 
Holes
Large animals
Small animals
Dying young
Open spaces

I have ___.
A friend with benefits
A laptop in my room
A television in my room 
Good grades
My own car 
Married parents

fuckyeahtattoos:

My latest tattoo, and so far my biggest. The qoute is from Alice in Wonderland and is a coversation between the hatter and alice, ive had this qoute on my wall for a year now waiting to decided where to have it and how to do it. The pocket watch is my artists take on the white rabbits and is set to 6 o’clock, the time at which the mad hatter is permentantly stuck. This tattoo has many meanings for me, i love the book, i love the movie (all versions), i love carrol and all the contraversy around him, my middle names alice, and i truely belive the qoute is one to live by. Done at Babylon Tattoo’s Doncaster by Luke.

not for the money, though I need that too, but for the simple, wonderful reason of being able to legitimately ignore some of my friends.

I understand that’s a horrible reason but I’m so sick of having to babysit your fucking feelings all the time. Do these people not know me? Do they not remember that I enjoy my silence?! F U stupidly forgetful friends. Leave me alone for a little bit dammit.